My Love-Hate Relationship With My Blog
I’m lost.
In a sense that I’ve lost my voice in blogging ever since I started my studies again back in 2017 after a year long of blogging every day (not quite every day but I did manage to publish 20+ posts in a month). I used to have so many blog posts ideas that I wanted to put up on my blog but right now, when I have the time and mean to blog every single day if I wanted to, I just… don’t.
I tried everything.
Buying expensive theme? Checked.
Finding new interests that I could share on my blog? Checked.
BUYING a new laptop so I can at least be excited to put up new posts? Checked.
So what exactly went wrong?
Why am I not putting up exciting posts like I used to?
Honestly speaking, I don’t have the answer myself.
I wanna write about my journaling hobby. I wanna write about the gazillion stationery stuff I bought in the past couple of months. I wanna do a washi tape collection post because boy I have a lot. I wanna write about my A6 ring binder journal that has lots of sequins and is just so girly I wanna take many photos of. I wanna write haul posts because I bought some makeup stuff and just exciting stuff that I wanna share with people.
But I didn’t. And I still haven’t.
Maybe, just maybe, I abhor the whole blogging process mainly the taking photos part. Maybe I feel like blog photography is a burden that hinders me from putting up posts because I can do the writing part quite well but the visual element of a blog post isn’t my absolute favourite thing to do.
Maybe I’m slowly giving up on my blog like every other person who gives up on theirs and I’m just finding excuses for it.
I don’t wanna treat my blog like a weekly chore I have to do. I wanna be putting up posts because I enjoy blogging like I used to and not because “I have done this for many years, might as well continue until the end.” I have the choice to either continue or stop blogging forever but I wanna give it one more try to pick up the pace and see how I enjoy it.
For now, this is not the end of my blog. Hopefully.
Creating a blog post is so time consuming when you need to factor in the time to take photos, preparing the prop, resizing the images and then finally on the writing part. I have tried to let go of my need to get the perfect photos, the perfect timing, the perfect post and it makes my blog writing process becomes more enjoyable.
Take a break if you want to as I’ll always wait for your post Erin x
thank you Rasya x
i love to see your post.. your writing.. I feel you.. sometimes I having quite similar situation.. i want to enjoy my blog more..
i know right hmm
Don’t ever quit. You may take a break for a while. I’ve been blogging since 2009 and I hate to see my favourite bloggers, one by one, quit blogging. I enjoy reading this blog.
thank you so much Aisya! x
Is it weird that I feel the same for the past few years until now? I used to have lots of blog post ideas before but now I can say that I struggle a little.
I know it is going to be hard at first but once you realize how much you love blogging, it will get better at the end. Wish you all the best and I am looking forward for your next posts! x
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thank you Syaza! x
I stopped going public for years and after I finally graduated, I decided to start again. I’ve been reading your blog for years (stalker alert hahaha), I’m glad that you’re still updating and for me it is still exciting hehe. I look forward to reading your future posts especially about makeup and your journaling hobby! I’ll be happy to read other topics as well. I really hope you’ll get your ‘blogging spirit’ back Erin!
thank you Nini! x
I love your posts, Erin so please don’t ever stop blogging. You can take as much time as you need to get the excitement of blogging again but please don’t quit, it’ll be a lost for the blogging world. But at the same time, I’d respect whatever decision you come up with as it’s all yours to make. But please notify your readers so we won’t be left hanging :'(
that’s so thoughtful. thank you Lya x
It’s kinda normal I guess to feel that way once in a while, and it is okay if you need a break, but don’t stop okay! I loveee your blog posts. I wish you all the best and hopefully you’ll always feel motivated in blogging! 🙂
thank you Dilla! x
Kinda sad to hear fellow bloggers said something like that. I hope you will get your blogging momentum back. Photography has been one of my passion for a long time so maybe I got a little excited every time I did something and I started to photograph it right away and thinking “this is for blog, this is for instagram and this angle is for instastory” but I have to admit, I got lazy when it comes to editing so most of my post keeps… getting piled up each day. Good luck okay Erin.
it is, unfortunately. i hate photo editing too. it takes so much time and precision 🙁